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The Rite of Initiation: You are going to die
"The transformational journey of death and resurrection is the only real message. It makes you indestructible. The real life, God's life, is running through you and in you already. But allowing it to flow freely doesn't come easily. When you do, the spiritual journey really begins. Up to that moment it is just religion. Everything up to then is creating the container, but you have not yet found the contents; you are creating the wineskins, as Jesus says, but you are not yet drinking the intoxicating wine."
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Imagine the Pentecost..... then... and now
And then while in the midst of one of these prayer meetings, when all were present, the Holy Spirit descended in a new way and dramatic way. In a show of controlled power THE SPIRIT came in the form of a violent wind that filled but did not destroy the house. And then THE SPIRIT manifested Its presence via fire from heaven that did not consume them but miraculously separated and rested on each individual.
The Holy Spirit came as a violent wind and fire to anoint the church with symbols of power and purity in response to their obedience and commitment to God.
The Holy Spirit then proceeded to enable them to miraculously speak in different languages. Around 120 people praised God in all the known languages of the Roman Empire, and yet without any confusion in the message. It was an incredible sign that God was ushering a new era where everyone irrespective of race or language could be united as a people of God through Christ.
But what of the present day? What is the Holy Spirit saying to us today? Are we still united with God through Jesus Christ? Are we still speaking in different languages, with different thoughts, yet find commonality through God without confusion? Or are we waiting for another Pentecost?
Imagine the scene, as the 20th chapter of John describes, the disciples cowering in a locked room—afraid. They are afraid of death. They are afraid of violence. They are afraid of responsibility. In a word, they are afraid of life. Without Jesus leading them, comforting them, healing them—without Jesus living life for them—they simply cannot imagine a future of meaning and purpose.
Picture then, Jesus suddenly appearing to them, ignoring locked doors and locked hearts. He simply appears—breathing into them, onto them, among them. Re-creation—a new beginning—the Word becoming flesh, this time in the brand new birth of an infant community. It is a community that will call itself church—a community that now has in them, on them, and among them the resurrected power of Jesus. And so, they—we—become the resurrected body of Christ in the world. ....Amazing!
When God sings through the birds, or breathes through the wind, do we see Him appearing to us? Or do we, like the cowering disciples, fear life locked in an anxious faith, afraid of life’s mysteries without the visible Jesus? Do we heed God’s calling in our lives, or are we waiting for someone else to do and be who God is calling us to do and be.
Do we see God in quiet, unexpected, faithful places Jesus, not to do ministry for us, but to breathe ministry through us—a re-creation of passion and purpose for our living, Churches and individuals who are doing marvelous and miraculous works in His name and through the inspiration of the Holy Spirit,… another breathing of the Pentecost.
Another Pentecost? … Whenever we choose to lock ourselves up in our human frailties, our utterly dependable God will not leave us alone. God comes to stand in our midst and breathe upon us—passing on resurrection possibility to us and sending resurrection power through us to resurrect the world. This is the good news of the gospel. This is the Pentecost promise.
But would we recognize Pentecost if it happened today? Distracted by disasters and mayhem, multimedia events, real and fabricated, it is difficult to discern the work of the Spirit in our midst. So what of little Pentecosts— the scores of people who have gone to Louisiana or to the wreckage of the tsunami, or to Darfur, to Guatemala, to lower Manhattan in the World Trade Center catastrophe.
When people gather with no previous notice to pray for trapped miners and for children killed without warning, and those who write checks to stop easy purchase of guns and to fill food pantries, to correct birth defects, and to look with awe at those whose children were killed who forgave their killers, and those who vote as if their life and faith demand it.
When is all that a result of sons and daughters prophesying, young men and women seeing visions, and old ones dreaming dreams? Or,.. God’s Spirit pouring out? Another Pentecost? Pentecost happens in our midst all the time. Jesus appears to us all the time. Do we see Him?
Friday, May 7, 2010
We are God carriers.... a God of Surprise
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Wanting to change the world
I travel frequently to Kenya and over the years have developed a passion for using my profession as a tool for delivering health care to underserved global communities. Approximately a year ago, two students were referred to me by one of my former professors to explore the possibility of traveling to Kenya to learn more about healthcare in developing countries. Thus began a year of discussion and preparation to travel to St. Mary's Missions Hospital in Nairobi, Kenya for 5 weeks of intense learning.
Warmly embraced by the staff in general, my colleague and close friend Dr. Michael Johnson (a U.S. trained surgeon who has been practicing in Kenya for over 20 years), facilitated this venture from the Kenya side, while I prepared the synopsis/curriculum from the U.S. side. James Kimani, chief pharmacist at St. Mary's, provided guidance and facilitated exposure to the pharmacy and inpatient care areas as well as the TB/HIV and hypertension/diabetic outpatient clinics. Establishing relationships with the medical staff was key in this learning experience, especially since at St. Mary's, clinical pharmacy hasn't yet become the norm. Yet acceptance on the wards readily occurred and Drs. Cheam and Nguyen's presence among the medical teams making morning rounds was highly encouraged, if not expected. Once familiarity was established, which was probably after the first few days, recommendations and perspectives on therapy were frequently requested. In this, the seeds of a deepening relationship between the profession of pharmacy and these medical professionals, were planted. Previously, there was little knowledge of the important contributions pharmacists could make to increasing the efficiencies of healthcare at St. Mary's. The economics of healthcare are relevant here too, and so the chief pharmacist and his staff spend little time on the patient wards. Therefore, Drs. Cheam and Nyguyen are setting a precedent and establishing a framework for advancing the cause and recognition of pharmacy practice at St. Mary's hospital. Again, vision and courage take center stage, in this, an area that has never been considered at this Missions hospital,..but, an area that has now been introduced. Remember the question about... "If we think we can change the world...?" The world at St. Mary's has already been changed.
The nursing staff at St. Mary's has been introduced to a different way of relating to pharmacists. A paradigm shift has been initiated in which nurses have begun to consider and question the acute and chronic implications of therapies they administer at the request of physicians. Culturally, this is a difficult matter to address, but this, like other difficult issues raised, will be handled with compassionate team work and a view toward increasing efficiencies for the ultimate benefit of the patient. The presence of Drs. Nguyen and Cheam on the medical team along with their CME lectures (more on this in upcoming posts) have prompted much discussion on enhanced healthcare efficiencies and the contribution of pharmacists towards realizing these efficiencies.
The learnings that Drs. Nguyen and Cheam have gained will benefit their patients regardless of their ultimate practice setting. In the immediate future, Dr. Cheam is headed for South Dakota to work for the U.S. Public Health Service as Lt. Cheam. Dr. Nguyen will be entering a residency program in Loma Linda, CA. In both instances their future colleagues will be blessed to serve at their sides.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Will the real healthcare crisis please stand up?
We've been in Kenya 42 days. During that time , we've established a solid and enduring relationship with the medical and pharmacy staffs of St. Mary's Missions Hospital, met with staff and faculty of the University of Nairobi, where I've lectured twice, and soon to be Drs. Cheam and Nguyen have collaborated with the U.O.N. pharmacy students, conducted five medical camps, toured Glaxo SmithKline Pharmaceuticals, M.E.D.S (Mission for Essential Supplies and Drugs),and met with individuals from KEMRI-Wellcome Trust to establish a method of database development for the hospital. So its been a busy time, and, an enjoyable time. Yet, I hadn't spent significant time in the medical clinics or the medical care areas, so as it turned out, when we asked who was doing rounds today and the response was 'no one', we did what any self-respecting physician and pharmacist would do, we started rounds. You see, St. Mary's is the sort of place where sometimes you work where you're needed. If you happen to be a physician and pharmacist team and no one has made rounds that day (for whatever reason), well,... you get the picture.
The pace is dizzying and exhausting, from the pedicatrics ward, to Women's Surgical and finally on to the Mens surgical,..with an array of disorders, discomforts, patients who have late-stage cancers, victims of road traffic accidents, those in need in skin grafts, and yes, those with necrotic tissue disorders consequent to inappropriate and incorrect use of antibiotics. We treat, order lab tests, correct orders, cancel some antibiotic use, discharge some patients, and overall, make sure that patients are receiving the appropriate care. Completing this, we move on to the outpatient clinic, where the pace is just as frenetic if not more so. St. Mary's sees more than 277,oo0 outpatients yearly, by the most recent estimation. Are there other hospitals in Nairobi? Yes, but none that serve the poor with the compassion and dedication seen at St. Mary's, and so, patients flock here. You can imagine that maintaining this pace on a daily basis, yields fatique, disconnection and often disillusionment. But those who keep this pace realize that the patient's need for care outweighs their need for rest (at least at the time). Its energizing but concerning to think about the over half-million people (patients plus those accompanying them) who come through these doors in need of physical and emotional healing. The goodnews is that, here, it can be found. The bad news is that the staff is overworked and 10 more St. Marys could maybe begin to quench the overwhelming medical needs of Kenyans. We finish for the day at St. Mary's,.. haven't eaten,.. we're drained emotionally, but excited about the child we were able to discharge because his adenoids were no longer swollen, or the women whose antibiotic burden was lessened because of the teachings from Drs. Cheam and Nguyen on pharmacokinetics, but saddened because of the 100 year old man who will die from prostate cancer because at this stage there's little to be done (his PSA was greater than 100).
But this happens everyday at St. Mary's,... a lot of patients are seen, yet only a small fraction of those who could be seen, ....if they could get here, ....if they had the $1.25 or $5.00/day for in patient treatment. The if's, like the why's, could fill this page...
We talk about the health care "crisis" in the U.S. But it begs the question,...even in the most desperate situations, will patients be denied care? Is there a way to treat all patients? Will medications be made available all, even to those who cannot afford them or are without health insurance? The truth is that even without the recent healthcare legislation, we all have access to healthcare. The question has been whether or not we're willing to create equality in order to erase the artificial boundaries to access. Are we, as a society, willing to do the work, up front, that will allow all of our neighbors the freedom to pursue our common human right for access to the state- of-the-art care. Too often, those without the time, without the resources, or,.. without the energy are forced to create their own access through avenues that are the birthrite of us all, but remain hidden in a thicket of bureaucracy and frustration. Too often, these potential patients lack access, not because the care is unavailable, but because of the inherent fatique, disconnection and disillusionment created by our system. So, maybe this is the biggest and most profound WHY. Perhaps one could understand, although not justify, inaccess to care, and resultant fatique, disconnection and disillusionment at an overworked Missions Hospital in a developing country, ..corrupt governments and all of that,... but then, maybe all of us are corrupt in our denial of the basic human right of healing for all. ..Hmm?!
Our collective blessings are many. Our collective challenge and our call is to insure equal access to all of those blessings. Perhaps its instructive to remember the universal implications of Martin Luther King's statements about the illusion of democracy, and that none are truly free until all have access to, and enjoy the freedoms.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Where has the time gone?. a few days to go
The two clinic days we had this past week, were in Laikipia district in places known only to those who live there,.. Sipili and Donyloip. Anyone who finds these on a map has my admiration, if not my suspicion that they just fabricated these names. But they do exist,. ask anyone, again, anyone who lives there, that is. But Sipili and Doyloip are real. The people are extremely hospitable and genuine, desiring a quality of life similar to that which is desired by all places on this globe. Sipili and Donyloip are also dry and dusty, ...without any meaningful rainfall for the past four years,... that's right, four years,... but the rains have come recently, planting has begun and area farmers are looking towards a harvest in the next several months, as well as the resultant food and water.
housing developments to reach us. Instead they traversed open fields of grazing cattle. Quite a difference from the areas to which we're accustomed. But this is daily living for these areas in almost desperate need of health care. Areas where upper respiratory and skin infections are commonplace as is gastrointestinal worm infestation. Malnutrition and dehydration are the norm. Cardiovascular and metabolic diseases aren't seen so much since these are diseases of aging, yet some of our patients were in their 10th decade, and even as you age here, you're more inclined toward prostate, esophageal and liver cancers. Although there was one patient who was under the care of her son who was managing her diabetes, but now, they were out of money with no prospects that the closest hospital would continue to provide her insulin or her oral diabetic medication (Glucomet) without charge,... Although we happened to have a three month supply of Glucomet, the insulin would have to wait,.... We were a well stocked pharmacy, but in this area, largely devoid of electricity, we had no refrigeration, and therefore no insulin, and for that matter, neither did the patient. This son, who had managed his Mother's diabetes thus far was limited in options, but that's not unusual here,... truly, the options available are either limited or,... none.
But there's one thing more. This team is American, Kenyan, Vietnamese, Cambodian and Jewish.... five different heritage origins. Could this be the Body of Christ? Too often we tend to segregate ourselves without reconciling ourselves in Christ or to each other. Perhaps this is what John saw in Revelations when he talks about a gathering of people from every nation and every tribe standing before the throne of the Lamb. In this team we've begun to create an assembly of service composed of people from various ethnic backgrounds,... an unlikely team perhaps, but a team in which our service to God greatly overshadows any differences we may have. Yes, these weeks have flown past, ....we've done, seen and traveled much,.. an adventure to say the least, an awesome and wonderful experience to say the most.
Four days to go, but then, who's counting :>)
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Glorious Victory Academy Clinic,.... a good day?
Dr. Stephen Muhudhia, a close friend who often works these clinics with us, saw many of the patients. Whenever we're organizing the clinics, Dr. Steve, a pediatrician quickly agrees to assist and join in the planning. He describes the iron deficiency anemia he sees on this day,.. iron deficiany anemia caused by malnutrition. For those of us from the U.S., Steve talks about geophagia, the craving for soil, that our bodies begin to develop in situations of malnutrition. We listen and learn intently as he relates the stories he's heard,.. to us, alien stories,.. about children who literally eat dirt because they crave to do so as a result of malnutrition. We're learning, we're learning the sadness of existence in these four villages, where there is a scarity of clean drinking water, where mothers must decide which child is fed today. This is the world we're treating today.
The pharmacy students, soon to be Drs. Nguyen and Cheam, are learning too. This world is far
from the classroom they've habitated for the last six years, far even from the Native American reservations and other places of need where they've served during their recently past year of clinical rotations. But these Doctoral Candidates have sought a different plane of practice. Theirs is a mission of service to those who have severe health needs. Their vision is expanding on a daily basis, these health care professionals whose dedication to caring is becoming limitless. For me, it has been a priviledge to witness. Whereever they choose to practice, they will do so combining their professional knowledge with love and compassion. In this clinic, they operated the pharmacy under the supersion of my good friend Simon Tunje, the pharmaceutical technologist with whom I've worked for the past two years. Simon's participation in these clinics is critical since it allows me the freedom to consult with the school administration and others concerning health and educational issues pertaining to the general community.
So you could say yesterday was a good day,... we saw 165 patients, counselled many more on various life issues, distributed mosquito nets, trained pharmacy students and continued relationships within four area villages. Energized by the work, yes, you could say it was a good day. But good for whom... We get to feel good about ourselves, we who do a medical camp here once a year,.. we who get to see a Doctor whenever we want,.. we who get to go home to the U.S. Was this a good day for the many who suffer daily from malnutrition? Was this a good day for the mother who told me her daughter would like to transfer to another secondary school but can't for lack of school fees, or the mother whose mud dwelling that had been three rooms is now one room because of the severe rains. While our organization (Bibles, Books and Shovels) has an ongoing relationship with these communities, people continue to have daily struggles, but nonetheless seek good days. So we dispense our medicines, examine our patients and try to infuse some "goodness" into this day. But can we really? In an area where many days just aren't so good?
Steve Muhudhia once told me that those who think they're dispensing pills and cough syrups only, are missing the point. Dr. Muhudhia, a Kenyan well familiar with medical outreach ministries, explained that when medicines are brought and patients are seen and cared for with love, kindness and compassion, along the pills and cough syrup, is a giant dose of hope and knowledge, ...knowledge that there is someone who cares, hope that perhaps the children can aspire to a better life, hope that, although governments may not care or provide basic needs for their citizens, there are those who do (care), and will hold the governments accountable, even as they are dispensing pills and cough syrups.
John the Baptist, while in prison, enduring his own suffering that didn't feel so good, and knowing of others' continued struggles,..sent his disciples to ask Jesus if He was the one they had been waiting for,.. was He, in fact, the Christ,.. Jesus replied, ...you go tell John that the lame walk, the blind see, the good news has been preached to the poor..... I think he may have been saying that, yes, suffering still exists, and will continue to exist, but now there is a sense of hope because they've seen and heard the good news of physical and spiritual healing through compassion and love. Whatever it is that we do, our call is to be that good news, through our actions, as well as our words. If we do that, then everyone may be able to say "Yes, this has been a good day".
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Dad
So you might say, Neil c'mon, you're way over the top on this, and I would say,.. look,... I was at a petrol station where we had stopped to have our radiator hose repaired on the aforemention State-of-The-Art Toyota (see previous post), walking along, minding my own business, when out of the corner of my eye, off to the left, I spy a gentleman, probably the owner of the petrol station, sitting in a chair, and sitting as only my Dad could sit,... those of you who knew him won't need an explanation,..those of you who didn't,.. well, its hard to explain anyway. So I walk closer, and he begins to rise from the chair as only my Dad could rise, and walk as only he could walk,... and, ...I'm not making this up,.. when I asked to take his picture, he sounded like,... that's right. And the most amazing thing,... when he posed for the picture leaning on a car parked outside the petrol station's bay,... he stood like The Man. Even had his shirt open at the collar,... I tell you it was uncanny and a bit spooky,.. don't know how else to describe it.
We live in a small world,... so small that I think we're connected by the tiniest of threads, the most stunning coincidences, the strangest circumstances, that at the most unexpected moments capture our attention and bind us together as the human family we really are. I saw this gentleman for the quickest of 15 minutes, and we were bound for that 15 minutes through his likeness of my father and willingness to have his picture taken because of that. He expressed flattery when asked for his picture and a silent joy when told that he looked like someone that I love. Eerily, the same type of silent joy my father often expressed in similar circumstances, and in that, we found relationship,... for a brief 15 minutes perhaps, but I'll remember those 15 minutes for quite awhile.
So, whenever you're out and about, minding your own business, be on the lookout for that strange set of circumstances that could provoke you to think about how you're linked to your neighbor in very real, yet unexpected ways. Of course some of us may not want to be linked to our neighbor,... but I'll save that one for later. As for me, .. I just felt like yelling, "Hey Dad,.. wait up" :>)
Monday, April 12, 2010
On the lighter side,.... roadside justice?
Anyway, we're cruising along when we're flagged down by the Roadside Police. One thing you have to know is that in Kenya, few police have cars. They'll flag you down, arrest you for some fictitious violation and then say, "Drive me to the police station." That is, if you're arrested. Most of the time, the'll inspect your car, at roadside, fine you and then collect the fine, at roadside. One stop shopping has a whole new meaning. So we were stopped, which, by the way is a routine occurrence in Kenya, fined 400 kenya shillings (a little over $5.00 U.S.) and then sent on our way. Keith says the infraction was the cracked windshield. Now, we could be stopped again and fined for the same cracked windshield (as it turns out we weren't but there are no guarentees). Bear in mind that, if we hadn't paid the "fine" at roadside, we would have received a summons to apear in court to receive an even heftier fine. So this is roadside justice,... its quick, usually painless, if somewhat annoying, and cheap compared to the alternative. Courtroom justice would have cost more in money and time. By the way, the word "justice" is purely incidental. It fills space, nothing more,.. though it could easily be called roadside "hassle". How about roadside injustice? And of course, let's just say the 400 kenya shillings doesn't go to the municpal treasury. Its really very funny once you get used to it,... you just build the time into your day, and you have no worries. Its all about expectations (you should expect to be stopped). So the next time you're in Kenya, better be sure to carry around an extra 1000 bob,.. you never know when you'll need it, lest you hear the words,.."you're under arrest,... drive us to the police station."
Sunday, April 11, 2010
The Lecture
In any case, Kenyan training in the healthsciences is, in many if not most cases, more advanced than some U.S. schools of the healthsciences. Their thinking is quite progressive, their attitudes are very positive, their overall position is that we, as healthcare scientists, particularly pharmacists, have a rightful place among the healthcare elite of this country, and it is our obligation to be the authors of change,.... for all Kenyans. But, in this country of approximately 40 million, there is rampant HIV/AIDS, epidemic malaria, particularly in coastal areas, nutritional problems abound, with hunger, starvation and dehydration leading the causes of death in children. The issues of poverty as the primary factor in all of these circumstances is huge with most working individuals livng on $1.00 per day. So why is it that in a country of such forward thinking health professionals, AIDS and its accompanying deaths, exists at record prevalance, dehydrated children die routinely, malaria still kills the most vulnerable, and in its most remote areas, there are no physicians, no pharmacists, no medications and almost nothing that bears the slightest resemblance to regularly administered modern healthcare.
Several years ago, while walking on a gravelly/dirt path towards the main road, in a small Kenyan village, I asked my host, "What happens when someone gets sick back here". He smiled the kind of smile usually given to someone who has asked the most nieve of questions,..and replied simply," they die." Over the years, in other remote areas of Kenya, I've asked the same question, and the answer has always been the same,...."they die,...,of the simplest malady,... "they die." Of the most uncomplicated respiratory or cardiovascular disorder,..."they die". But wait a minute,... we have forward thinking health professionals,.. people who boldly state their intention to innovatively treat disease. People with uncomplicated disease are not supposed to die prematurely.
The universal tragedy is that this is not a story unique to Kenya. In many of our "developed" countries, there are those who die, needlessly, because "innovative healthcare" is not synonomous with the term "equally available healthcare", and even with U.S. healthcare reform, and the availability of insurance for an additional 32 million individuals, we are left questioning if that insurance will provide innovative healthcare to all. My mother who may have been diagnosed with cancer may not be offered state of the art treatments without the appropriate insurance, and what's even more tragic, is that investigations required to render an accurate diagnosis, may not even be ordered until the cancer is in its late stages,... because my mother may not have an insurance program that will pay for state of the art diagnosis and treatment, ...y'know,... the treatments that are seen on Fox Chase Cancer Hospital commercials. Or, my mother, because of the color of her skin, or perceived social background, may be seen as not worthy of elite care that would be offered to others of higher social or economic background. So, I wouldn't get too overjoyed about the new U.S. healthcare proposals until we have a sense of how the new legislation incorporates, in very specific terms, the dignity that one human being affords another,... or until the newly enacted laws state how we should relate to each other as the community that we really are. So, of course, Kenya doesn't have a monoply on poorly and unequally disseminated healthcare. We all share pieces of this tragedy.
Nevertheless, I incorporated some of this in my talk last week, calling on those in the audience to truly advocate for adequate and evenly distributaed healthcare for all Kenyans (especially those in the slums where we've often treated patients). It seemed very well received, and judging from the optimistic views of the students, their overall idealism as well as ambitious thoughts on healthcare provision, there is abundant reason to be hopeful that in future generations this change will come about. These Kenyans seem more than committed to the meet the challenges and engage in the difficult work that change will require. Their dedication to this could allow them to make the difference in providing healthcare for all Kenyans, in a way that affords uplifting the human spirit, allowing human dignity to flourish and dispenses hope along with medication. Now if that hope and committment for equality in healthcare reaches the world, the term Universal Health Care could take on its true meaning. Archeologist have said that civilization began in East Africa. Maybe the rebirth we need for global equally disseminated healthcare will begin in East Africa as well.
Friday, April 9, 2010
But on the bright side,...
"Oh by the way, I've referred another child to you."
" Don't worry Michael, the driver has already been here and he has the note, so, he's on his way to the hospital"
"No, this is another child. Faith (from Imani), called me this morning and she's sending another child, I gave them your number so you could admit them, just sign the note for 'The Least of These' (his organization for providing care). "I told them Dr. Pitts would admit the child since I wouldn't be here."
"Oh thanks Michael, Now I have admitting privileges."
"Well, after you've been here two weeks, you're in charge"
Such is life at St. Mary's hospital, even visiting health care professionals lend a hand at providing care for those who may not have access either because of distance, finances or both. As it turns out, this child was the son of Faith's friend, Maureen, who had already gone to Kenyatta National Hospital because her child had been experiencing seizures every hour since 4:00 a.m. But because she is aware of the care and personal attention the child will receive at St. Mary's she called Dr. Johnson, and then, me.
Ian Josh, 3 1/2 years old, was seen almost immediately at St. Mary's and it was at first suspected that he had menningitis. Although he hadn't had a seizure for the last 2 hours and his temperature was normal at the time, menningitis is suspected in cases where the child doesn't have a history of convulsive activity. In addition to the mother and father, Ian is accompanied by his grandmother who happens to be a retired nurse and was tracking symptoms and current course of events well. The child had recently experienced pneumonia, had been hospitalized, treated and released from Kenyatta during the course of the past two weeks, had finished discharge meds, but now had a different problem,... these new onset convulsions, of seemingly unknown origin.
The pediatrician, Dr. Kimani was wise, patient and kind,.. a great combination of personal attributes when seeing patients at St. Mary's. Upon inquiring about the patient's history, it is determined that these current episodes may be due to high fever. Even in our country, children have seizures of this type. Nonetheless an EEG is ordered, phenobarital is prescribed and the child and family are sent home. When I called to follow-up that evening, Ian hadn't experienced further seizures and was sleeping, no surprise since he had had several doses of phenobarbital that day (for emergency and acute treatment of the seizures). When Ian's Mother, Maureen, called the next day, Ian was doing well, still experiencing no further symptoms.
So, there is a bright side and, for most situations, good outcomes for cases at St. Mary's,.. not all children remain in the hospital and not all children die. Although we still don't know whether or not Ian has epilepsy, the EEG will provide further information, we do know that he was seen with compassion and love, by all who attended him. Isn't this what we're supposed to do?
As for my admitting priviledges, I hope they're short lived,.... but then again,..whenever we're asked to 'stand in the gap' for 'The Least of These', we all have admitting priviledges to offer our neighbors a higher quality of life.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
I have...only questions
There is hope in their eyes although a despair in their body language. Seated on benches and chairs in the office, they are bent with hands cupping faces, weighted by the burden of uncertainty, wondering what words of assurance will be provided. The physician has seen the father's X-rays and shows signs of internal struggle as he looks for words to express his truth. That the father will die from this cancer is certain... when?.. is less clear. How to tell these devoted sons is difficult and unclear. The words come slowly and with compassion, but they come. "The best course for your father at this point is hospice care. " Your father can be made comfortable in his final days. "This is time for refelction and reconcilliation with family members", says the physician. "There are no effective treatments".
When we hear those words, where do we turn? When you are told that your 60 year old father will not live much longer, how do you fit those words into your life. The sadness of Kenya is that 60 years old is beyond the average life expectancy by several years, and so, this father was living in excess of his allotted time. But isn't that still 18 years too short? Isn't that 10 years below our conception of a "normal" lifespan? I have no answers, only questions.
These young men, Daniel, Simon and Peter, will soon loose their father at the age of 60 years old. The physician and pharmacist, good friends and co-workers in missions, deliver the bad news with compassion and sympathy, tempered with an attempt at hope that at least the father's pain can be relieved. Through consultation with each other, the pharmacist and physician offer morphine as a way of mitigating the father's pain, ..but who will mitigate the pain of these sons? Who will offer relieve for the Mother who will soon loose her mate, or the twin sisters and youngest brother, who at 22, will be fatherless? It seems shallow at times to say that God relieves our suffering, although he does. It can sound insincere and empty to suggest that God lifts our fears of the unknown, although he has promised to do that. The morphine the pharmacist recommends will be unable to sooth the emptyness and the soon to appear void of the father's loss... What can we offer them, other than prayer,.. which we offer? I have no answers,....only questions.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Pasaka
Saturday, April 3, 2010
An ordinary circumstance...
Then there is Pasaka, also nameless, but called Pasaka by Dr. Johnson the M.D. on call. Pasaka is kiswahi for Easter. Earlier in the day, Pasaka was also brought in from Imani orphanage after being found abandoned somewhere in Nairobi. Also given an electrolyte and salt solution, as was Bonaventure, but Pasaka has so far survived the torments of dehydration and malnourishment. Even without an incubator or high fat/high calorie fluids, Pasaka lives on this Easter eve,..as Jesus lives.
Life in any circumstance, in any environment, is tenuous. We all live by the day, if not the hour. In Kenya, life occurs sometimes in minutes. These two children were brought to St. Mary's Hospital hours apart,... one lives, the other dies. One child will return to a home, even if its an orphanage,... the other spent the night in a hospital mortuary. Jesus said "Suffer the little children to come unto me and forbid them not, for such is the Kingdom of Heaven. In Kenya, it seems that it is ordinary for children to suffer abandonment, dehydration and malnutrition, all products of extreme poverty, and in this we forbid them from coming into God's kingdom here on earth and life plays itself out sometimes in the hours and the minutes. Life is tenuous and random it seems. Its a matter of time and a matter of place, for if you were born in Kenya and don't arrive from the orphange in time, you could die.
So,... thus far in my most recent visit to Kenya (I've only been here for two weeks), we've seen two children die, unnecessarly,... a pleathora of assorted cancers and infections,... and untold numbers of suffering human beings that would not suffer,... under "ordinary" circumstances. During the Easter season, our ordinary circumstance is that traditionally, our children wear new suits and dresses to Church to sing praises to Jesus. Generally, we don't think about dying children. This Easter, as I sing praises to Jesus, Bonaventure and Pasaka have taught me about death and resurrected life in its real sense,... its close, and its personal. The way Jesus wants to relate to me. If we are open to God's lessons, the death of one infant on Good Friday, and the revitalization of another on Easter Sunday, can have profound,... and lasting impact. An ordinary circumstance at St. Mary's Hospital in Nairobi, Kenya,....A profound and extraordinary implication for how we live our Christianity.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Kibera,..... Lord, you know that I love you..... Really!!??
My kids, their kids, they're all God's kids, and regardless of where they were born, should anyone "live" like this? Susan Werner's Gospel Project says it well: "When I close my eyes so I would not see,.. my Lord did trouble me. When I let things stand that should not be, my Lord did trouble me. " Not enough of us are troubled when see this, or, too many of us close our eyes. The problems of Kibera and Mathare Valley and other places are too numerous to mention or think about much less solve, but this generation can at least begin the process. We fight over strips of land in Palestine and Israel, when the land we should be concerned about lanquishes in poverty and desperate need. The war on which we need to concentrate is one that combats disease, homelessness and other elements of poverty while claiming human dignity as the victory prize. We decry abortion while allowing those born to exist in squallor. Do you want this for your children? Perhaps the answer is obvious, but we have turned away from many obvious answers while neighbors suffer and die. Jesus said, the poor will always be with you because he knew that without Him, we'd turn away,... like we turned away from Him. He also said, that we should "love each other as I have loved you", and He knew that without Him, we wouldn't do this, yet we say we reciprocate the love He has for us. "Lord you know all things, you know that I love you." Do we really? So, maybe the key is that Jesus needs to be in the love we extend to each other and in the eradication of poverty. Smart man, that Jesus. If we want to be like Jesus, and He didn't turn away from the poor, why do we? Can we hold all children in our hearts, the way Jesus holds us in His? Do we really love and want to be,... like Jesus?
Thursday, March 25, 2010
The road to nowhere?
There are many excellent projects on the African continent that are inspiring, courageous, and with abundant vision. Africa is not a place where sadness abounds. Even within areas of desperate poverty, there is contageous hope. All too frequently though, we miss that which uplifts and report that which provokes feelings of sorrow, leaving us with a picture of Africa as an area of civil war, drought, famine and despair. But the balance is, that African citizens have refused, for centuries, to succumb to the images and perceptions of a world determined to undermine its vast sea of inner spirit, confidence and strength for revival. And so, the 12 of us gather on this dusty, muddy and grassy plain to visualize a community where hope lives in abundant supply. Such a community could serve as a model for changing the world's perception of a place that refuses to be forgotten. This community and those giving it birth, could be the impetus for changing a continent.
Jesus said to His 12, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men. Through following a vision for this City of Hope, are these 12, assembled here this afternoon, living the reality of becoming fishers of men, encouraging the human spirit, attempting to redirect our human destiny? We can do no less than to follow Christ and His vision and desire for a wholistic and healthy society. It appears that these 12 may be realizing that. These 12 may be answering Jesus' call to follow him. Isn't this the call that all of us should answer? Maybe the road doesn't have to lead to nowhere.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Choices, choices, choices
Leaving Victor, we walk past a woman, Maria, laying on a gourney, alive,.. although barely,.. weak and pale, also not saying much, a bit more activity though, but most people are in other parts of this room doing other things. Its seems the real action was not with Maria or Victor but in another direction of the room where I.V.s were quickly hung, electrolyte solutions rapidly opened with the accompanying background sounds of groaning and crying and an atmosphere of urgency, without which people would die.
From one table to the next we move past the half-dead and almost dead human beings in the re-hydration room of St. Mary's Missions Hospital in Nairobi, Kenya. Water and food are precious commodities here and if you don't get enough of either, you will be faced with the very real possibility of dehydration. Or maybe the real enemy you face is diarrhea. Dehydration and electrolyte depletion are close cousins, and there's a home for you here, in the re-hydration room, if not comfort and healing. Hence the I.V. fluids and electrolyte solutions. So, we live in a world composed of 75% water, yet we need a rehydration room. Seems like and oxymoronic situation. And its not so much that there isn't sufficient water, ..there is. Its a matter that on this planet, resources have not been directed to insure that the water is kept clean. And in areas of drought, efforts are not made to bring fresh water to those in need. Even in the end, in a re-hydration room in sub-saharan Africa, human resources are so diminished that we choose to attend to those who might survive rather that attempt revival of those who we know won't.
So there lays Maria, not her real name but perhaps a suitable one, on the half-dead or almost dead list. Maybe she'll find renewed life, maybe she won't. Her groans are muffled and becoming softer and her breathing more shallow, as attendants rush past her to save those they can. Choices, choices, choices,....Oh yeah, and as for Victor, the almost two year old, he's already dead, so that's one less choice that will have to be made. And by the way, we never knew his real name, but made the choice to call him Victor. We don't know his real life story, but if you die at the age of two in a re-hydration room, in Nairobi, Kenya, because diarrhea has literally drained the life from you, it seems appropriate that 'Victory' should in some way be attached to your humanity.
We've made the choice to allow much of our planetary population to suffer for lack of clean water or adequate nourishment. We've made the choice to allow many of our neighbors to die, even two year olds, because of it. Paul Tillich has suggested that we impune the credibility of our Christianity when we worship a child born in a manger over 2,000 years ago, yet allow two year olds to die needlessly, today. Could it be that in this, we've made the choice to compromise our planetary humanity?
Sunday, March 14, 2010
World Health (Originally posted 2/16/2010)
Play Ball (Originally posted 2/13/2010)
Six days, 4 hours and 18 minutes,,, not that I’m counting, ‘till spring training starts. Just heard that more snow is expected next week,,… don’t know if its fact or rumor, but either way, I think we’re about ready for at least the hint of warmth. So here it is. Spring training is on the way. February 17, 2010, coincidentally my birthday, pitchers and catchers for the Philadelphia Phillies, will report to Clearwater Florida for the start of this year’s spring ritual. Play Ball!! Now if you think this is a bit over the top, consider that this has been the snowiest winter in Philadelphia record keeping history. Yesterday Interstates 76, and 676 were closed, as was MLK and Kelly Drives. Major Universities were shut down, not that the students objected, but that has got to be a first. And so on to the big dig,,.. where are our cars?,.. WHERE ARE OUR CARS?? ,.. need a backhoe just to free ourselves from the imprisonment of our driveways..Now, I’m not complaining, its just that, in my old age I now realize why my father couldn’t wait to head south and take up residence in warmer climes. At the ripe “old” age of 76 he built a homestead in Lehigh Acres, Florida. But he came by it honestly,… my grandparents pulled up stakes and headed for Riverside, California when both were 86. So I can blame it on genes and I guess I have a “sunny” future to look forward to,… no pun intended,.. actually I did intend that,… But anyway, its time to think warm. Let’s imagine putting away the snow blowers and shovels. For me, I have tulips in my house as a reminder that spring can’t be far off. The thought of spring training, the sound of cheering crowds and visions of umpires dance in our heads with sights of 6 feet snow drifts, a distant dream. Bring on the ticket takers and the Philly Phanatic and let’s… Play Ball!!
Speaking of contrasts,...(Originally posted 2/10/2010)
And so my good friend, Michael Johnson, boarded a plane in Philadelphia yesterday, made his way to Ft. Lauderdale FL and is now enroute to Port au Prince Haiti on a plane he describes as a "cargo transport with seats". Michael is a surgeon with his primary practice in Nairobi, Kenya. He's used to contrasts. Amidst the palm trees of Nairobi, he's used to seeing suffering of the highest magnitude. Working within a tropical climate, he's become accustomed to hearing the groans of the poor. Within corrupt governmental structures, he's acclimated to watching unnecessary death. Or has he? In developed nations, we take for granted the "luxuries" afforded us by our systems. The human rights we enjoy have eroded our sensibilities such that we become negectfully blind to our neighbors circumstance and need,... even when our neighbor is the island a few doors down the block. But then again, we do that when our neighbor literally lives on our block. But when we truly care, is it possible to ever become habituated when our neighbor hurts?
So Dr. Michael Johnson is traveling with 21 others on "Missionary Flights International" to Haiti. Unnecessary suffering, for them, has not been accepted as the norm. When they reach Port au Prince, they are sure to witness the vast array of needs that have plagued this island country for centuries. Michael is sure to be confronted with the lack of infrastructure that will prevent him from a straightforward route to the hospital where he's needed. The starvation of the country is guarenteed to greet them upon arrival. There is little doubt that these missionaries will use their gifts to care for someone before they exit the vicinity of the airport. Let our prayers and thoughts be with them. They serve with love and compassion.
Jesus talked about healing repeatedly,.. and looking closely at this, perhaps our human commonality is in the healing we all seek. And so while there are contrasts of weather and the diversity of climatic events, congruity can be the result of healing. Physicians may physically provide healing to the sick, but can receive healing through the hope and love provided by the human spirit. And maybe this is what we see in Haiti and other places in the world: Healing and hope become mutually exchanged commodities, ...contrasts yield to similarities, and we find that we can love and care for our neighbors. All we have to do, is get out of the way. Contrasts?... What contrasts?
The size of our minds (Originally posted 2/6/2010)
Answering the call (Originally posted 1/13/2010)
Is it Spring yet? (Originally posted 1/2010)
The meaning of intellegence
Can you understand this? (Originally posted 1/10/2010)
So, when was this written (originally posted 1/7/2010)
Watching your health (originally posted 1/21/2010)
---NP
Saturday, March 13, 2010
What's in a name?
Oh by the way, check out the side panel, Article for the week,... What if Jesus meant all that stuff?